Magically Megan

Let's Try This Again, Shall We?

When I was in the last days of high school, I became overly excited about ending that phase of my life and starting university. I thought it would be so different, so wonderful. I had these big dreams of how amazing things would be and that I would be so happy. And don't get me wrong, it is definitely quite different than anything I have experienced and I do quite enjoy it. Its great. I'm not too fond of what I'm studying right now, but that's already set to change next year. But I've realized that it isn't all that splendor that I had planned in that faraway place of high school. And I know perfectly why, but I've been denying it for some time now. Its me. If I want my life to be wonderful, then I need to make it so. If I expect anything to change then I need to change. I can't do the same things repeatedly and expect a different result. That's not how things work. And its scary, and sometimes I wonder what will happen. I know its going to be hard. Its going to be extremely difficult but I'm sick and tired of being me. Not myself precisely, but I'm tired of the way I have been for so long. Sometimes one just needs to jump off the cliff and build their wings on the way down. I'm going to make mistakes in this process. I'm going to fall and I'm going to get hurt. But it'll all be worth it in the end, because I'll be where and who I want to be. So lets try this again, shall we? Lets begin making things different and beautiful. Let's be healthy, studious, kind, and most importantly, happy. Lets be around the people I want to be around and do the things I have and want to do. It's not going to be cleanly cut, there will be rough edges cute in the sides. But at least it will happen. I can't expect the world to do me a favor, I have to do it myself. And its quite exciting actually.